11 November 2015

My Gorgeous Mission IV experience

hye readers (as if like i still got a reader). hehe...
it had been five months since i write in my blog. 

its not that being an Obstetric and Gynecological doctor is so damn busy.
i am just a bit lazy. kinda addicted to Sims game right now.
thus i spend my free time playing games and being a couch potato.

and without knowing, i had gain 15kgs in just a few months !!!

picture taken on february 2015
i become overweight and feels awkward asking my infertility patients to lose weight.
i cannot fit into my clothes. 
i even had to wear a bigger glove size during operation!!

and then one day, i went to a boutique. i need to find a dress for my Indian friend's wedding.
i saw a very beautiful dress. it was a free size dress.
so i try it on.
with much difficulty, i can fit into the dress.
but i cannot take it out!!!!
i stay inside the fitting room, thinking of what to do.
then i brace myself and asked the boutique assistant to help me. 
because fitting room is a bit small, we had to open the door a bit and the assistant helped me.
luckily the dress did not tear up!
i was so ashamed.

and then i said to myself.
thats it!
i need to lose weight!!!

so i went to Mayfair.
i had to.
i did get a gym membership before this and did a lot of exercise, but i gain more weight cuz i eat a lot (i can finish up nasi goreng pattaya and kuewtiau in one meal).
i try to diet but my busy work demands a lot of energy.
that is why i choose a more expensive option.  and voila!
i had lost 9 kg in 4 months!!!

i was doing a treatment where the staff at Mayfair Bandar Baru Uda asked me "do you want to join a contest?"
i was curious.
but they promise me special price for treatments and the prize are so mouth watering!!
and who knows i end up being the 1st runner up!!

most people who knew me before 2015 feels weird hearing my weight become 71kg. I was thin before this. dunno what happened till I gain so much weight. (It was actually due to a lot of ice cream consumption. hehe)

i had fun practicing catwalk and knowing these lovely ladies. they are amazing.
one of them even lost 15kg!!! wow, amazing!!!

me with the winner and the 2nd runner up
2nd part where we pose in a simple white shirt that we had creatively decorate

1st part: pose and catwalk in a traditional wear
i had a lovely experience during the event. it was interesting!
i never do such thing in my life. 

and most of all, i am glad that i can lose weight!!!

besides treatment, i also avoid a lot of carbohydrates and sweet drinks.
and i love Mayfair's coffee so much.
so delicious and guilt free!!

though i am nowhere near my previous weight, i believe that any progress is a good one. 
plus, i had won a RM10k treatment + RM 3k facial and RM 1500 worth of Mayfair product, plus rm 800 photography voucher.

lets lose more weight!!!!!

29 May 2015

aku hanya manusia

being a doctor in this era is a great challenge.
we have such a big competitor --> Mr. Google Who Knows It All had been a reference for everyone.
it is OK if my patients learn about family planning from Mr Who Knows It All.
sometimes i asked them, have you ever heard of family planning?.... or have you ever heard of eclampsia?
you will be amazed on how people never heard of family planning or how much they had learn via Google.
OK, that is awesome, actually.
but when they start to diagnose themselves with a weird diagnosis that didn't even exist in Malaysia, or when they prefer to meet bomoh instead of me, i am hurt.

hello, what is the use for me to study for five years and then learn from my specialist if all of you can easily be ME?

there is one girl who proudly claims that she knows more than doctors by just referring to the Internet.


aku pun boleh je belajar macam mana nak pasang almari atau pasang lampu dari internet. tapi tak bermakna aku 'expert' dalam bidang tu. 

nak cakap tu fikir dulu boleh tak? kan aku dah marah ni... *cekak pinggang*

i hate stupid arrogant people. orang bodoh sombong memang menyakitkan hati.

ada satu insiden lain, dimana seorang ibu mengandung yang menghidap preeklampsia cakap dengan aku 'dokter, saya dah sihat. saya nak balik' dengan muka menyampah dan pandang ke arah berlawanan dengan aku. aku membelek 'observation chart' yang penuh dengan tulisan merah yang menandakan tekanan darah masih tinggi dan belum stabil
wanita bertudung labuh itu berkeras mahu pulang walaupun pelbagai nasihat aku berikan kepada beliau. tapi dia masih berkeras dan tak sudi pandang muka aku langsung.
"encik, kalau bawa isteri encik balik, isteri encik ada risiko kena sawan yang boleh membahayakan nyawa. tekanan darah tinggi dan ada protein dalam urine berisiko untuk dapat sawan semasa mengandung. ada orang boleh meninggal disebabkan sawan tu" kataku kepada suami pesakit.
lelaki berjubah dan berserban itu marah kepadaku "Dokter, kuasa hidup mati bukan di tangan dokter. itu semua ketentuan ALLAH"
"saya bukan nak cakap saya ni TUHAN tapi, saya cakap isteri encik sekarang ni belum sihat sepenuhnya. tekanan darah masih tinggi. ada risiko boleh dapat sawan yang boleh menyebabkan kematian" tegasku. 
akhirnya, sebab dia nak jugak balik, pakar bagi dia AOR discharge (balik atas risiko sendiri/ at own risk)
"kalau dia tak sayang nyawa dia dan nyawa baby yang dia kandung, kenapa kita kena kisah?" kata pakar kepadaku..
"tapi semua nyawa pesakit penting, boss. takkan kita nak bagi dia balik walaupun kita tahu dia boleh dapat eklampsia bila2 je" balasku..
"kat hospital pun diaorg boleh dapat eklampsia atau baby tu boleh IUD (Intrauterine death). kita tak boleh paksa pesakit" jawab pakar.

masih banyak yang perlu aku belajar. 
masih banyak kesabaran yang perlu aku pupuk.

if i care too much, i will be hurt too.
but if i don't care, pity all of my patients.

but i am just a HUMAN.
kita hanya mampu berusaha, selebihnya terserah kepada ALLAH.

24 January 2015

being a doctor is easier than MLM

i have been neglected my blog for quite some time.
so much had changed in my life.
i am finally in Obstetric and Gynecology department!
yeay! \(^.^)/

i am definitely in the "I LOVE MY JOB" mode right now.

i enjoy my work.
delivering babies, doing vacuum assisted delivery, stitching perineum, doing Caesarean section, seeing gynae cases (this is a bit difficult but i am still learning).
there's so much things to learn! seriously.
i need to refresh again what i had learnt 3 years ago (last time i was in O&G was in 2nd posting of housemanship).
believe me, it wasn't easy. hopefully i am able to perform my duty well. AMIN.

anyway, i have a piece of thought that i want to share with you today.

so why I had suddenly make such comparison?
i had few friends who claim that they are still a government hospital doctor while all they do is only 'lepaking' and 'fishing' people to join their MLM.
how dare you write the department and hospital name below your name when you don't even work as a doctor anymore?
p.s. if you lie, how can you gain a HALAL money?

actually, i had joined one type of MLM previously, which caused me to lost a lot of money. truthfully, i am not the type who can make a 'stone face' and disturb anyone and find more people to join.
seriously it is not for me!
i salute to those who can do that. you definitely had a lot of confident!
from some researches that i had done, my conclusion is: to succeed in MLM you need a lot of TIME.
However, i'd rather spend my time reading novels, playing games, and watch series.
and i usually i spent my postcall day with sleeping (working 36 hours non stop while oncall is tiring, OK)

there was one time, a teacher approached me.
first, we hang out at McDonald, just chatting up. then, she introduced me to her friends.
and then she invited me for some events. they claim that they all learn how to gain money easily.
"I don't know how to sell things. but i can easily gain money by just having fun while singing at karaoke"
it was nice to have a lot of friends (i am not sure they are true friends or just superficial ones).
and then when they found out that i had joined another MLM, i was banned from their group.
i thought she was sincere. i really like to be her friend.

in the end, i make a conclusion that being a doctor is easier.
i got books to find factual answers, i got specialist and seniors to teach me, i enjoy my work and i did not need to 'layer up my face' or lie to my patients.

so to all future doctors, not all doctors hate their job.
I've had enough with these negative people who said our job is degrading and stressful.
every job had their own obstacles.
please find something to 'defuse' your stress.
for example, when i am too tired, i look at those cute newborn babies and disturb them a bit (opps). hihi.

to those who succeed in MLM, i think you guys are amazing. you put so much effort and you can be rich in the blink of an eye. i hope the money that you get is not 'easy come, easy go'. do invest in some business for the sake of your family. you can't be doing that job for the rest of your life, right? or am i wrong? hmmm....

anyway, i am comfortable doing what i know and i think i am good at. i am definitely doing my job till i 'pencen'. insyaALLAH.

*this is my personal opinion. please don't take it as general perception. thank you.

01 November 2014

road gangster

sekarang ni memandu membuat aku berfikir banyak sampai rasa otak 'overload'. sakit kepala dan sakit hati dengan pemandu tak berhemah.

senario 1:
aku terpaksa berfikir sama ada kereta di sebelah aku nak masuk ke lane aku atau tidak.
sebab nanti tiba2 je dia akan menyusup masuk ke lorong aku tanpa memberi isyarat.
grrrr,,,,,,, sangat geram OK!

senario 2:
saat aku sedang bahagia memandu di jalan utama, tiba2 ada sebuah kereta yang dari lorong kecil menyusup masuk ke jalan utama dan aku hampir terlanggar kereta dia!
hey, tak reti bersabar ke?

senario 3:
di sebuah roundabout kecil...
bukankah kita harus mengutamakan kereta di kanan? tapi kenapa banyak kereta main jalan je sampai aku terpaksa berhenti di tengah2 roundabout?

senario 4:
kereta lain blok kereta aku dan tak tinggalkan no phone. sangat sangat irresponsible!!!

senario 5:
parking di tengah2 jalan sedangkan ada banyak tempat kosong. kereta aku muat2 je nak lalu. teruk betul.

senario 6:
bawak 30km/jam di 'fast lane'. ape kes? kura2 aku pun lari lagi laju.

kadang- kadang tak kira bawak berhemah macam mana pun tapi kalau orang lain 'reckless' akan accident jugak.
sabar ajelah.
haish... buat aku mengeluh pagi2 je. 
maaf post ini sangat negatif.
lain kali cerita benda positif ok.

24 October 2014

study? NO!!!!

it is not easy to be a doctor.
i had to admit it.
i enjoy working with patients.
i enjoy doing procedures.
but when too much referral i sometimes feel a bit stressed.
especially when people referred you things that you don't even know what to do.

someone asked me a lot of questions yesterday.
simple questions which i had learn but forgotten.

the truth is.....
i hate to study. i am not a person who likes to study.
for example, i have a book in front of me but i choose to blog instead.
i open a book for five seconds then i take my novel and read it for the tenth time.

i don't even know how i become a doctor!

"I am not going to tell you it's okay, you can go home and tell me the answer next week. No. You will become better with a gun pointed in your head. Am i right?" the person said cynically.
damn right you are.

i really should study now.