looking outside the broken window,
my fragile heart feels so sorrow.
drops of rain should take the fire away,
but why i couldn't think the right way?
i'm lost in the maze of life, stranded in a deserted corner.
I've always wish i could find a way out.
but alas, all i found is sadness.
i wish i could stop the tears in my heart, just like i wipe the tears on my face.
i wish i could help my family, but all i do is just weary them out.
this life is sickening, so excruciating, so unbearable.
maybe i'm just too tired. or maybe i think too much.
but the reality is there.
the fact is the bitter truth i had to swallow.
the problem is the real thing i had to face.
and the hardest thing of all is that there's nothing i can do to help,
except to pray that everything is gonna be OK.
dear ALLAH, please help us.
9 Jan 2010,
Labuang Baji Hospital.