27 September 2010

the fastest surgery record?!?!

i've heard about how fast eye surgery (phacoemulsion + intra ocular lens) can be done.
but today i had watch it all LIVE...
and i had to slap my face to believe that it is REAL..
you know what?
it's really amazing how fast the surgeon work on such small eyes.
did you know how much patient he had operate on today?
take a guess.
actually he had operate 21 patients today!
and all finished by 2.30pm, in three different hospitals!
amazing right?

after the operations, the doctor asked me, "can anyone do 21 brain surgeries or ortophaedics surgeries in 7 hours?"
"only opthalmologist can do so many surgeries in a day!" he added with a chuckle.
i guess he is right.
brain surgery usually takes such a long, long time (you had to crack the skull open first before u reach the brain, right?)
same as orthopaedic operations, which really need patience and strength.
but no matter what department and speciality, i guess they all had their own advantages and uniqueness.
after all, they had to work on a patient as a whole human being, not as the brain, the eye or the bone, right?

26 September 2010

waiting for the rainbow

i wish they have amnesia so dat they can stop telling bad things about me
i am an ordinary human, who was once fooled by the things that i thought may bring happines to me...
but i had found the place where i tripped and fall, and i'm standing up again now......
so please....
let me repent.
let me change.
give me a chance to prove that i am not her anymore
stop making me cry.
can't you see my pure intentions?
all i ask is for you to stop gossipping.
stop talking about the past.
don't hurt my fragile heart anymore.

next time you wanna say bad things about me, think twice...
is it worth it?
i believe ALLAH is fair..
and if this is a test for me, then i hope the rainbow will come soon...
p.s. i am so sorry if i ever break your heart and sorry you didn't get what you want. but i never disturb your personal life. so i hope you do the same. 

18 September 2010

sentimental fool

this few weeks,
nobody can realize the difference in me if they look superficially.
but deep beneath my skin, i've changed a lot.
my thoughts, my perception, my ways of thinking and most important, my soul.
i also did not hate myself anymore, which is a good thing cuz now i know that I AM NOT A LOSER.... (unless i think so)
i feel so great now, and more peaceful.
but i'm still afraid to be too happy...
is this real? or is it just another dream?
wanna know a secret?
there's someone that come across my dull self hating life...
we used to fight about the past. now we are crying about our future.
can two months become forever?
is it too much to ask for this moment to stop???
time, please stop and linger at this point where me and him feels so happy together...
please stop here.
don't let the traffic light turns green......
but i don't wanna cry anymore. i wanna spent this two months, and make it the most unforgettable time capsule in my life.
oh how i wish this two months can be forever.
but we are so unsure of the future.

you know what?
i used to say that i wanna follow the flow.
just live playfully till december and then go back to malaysia and become someone important.
but then he came.
and made me realize. why wait till i go back to malaysia?
i can start to appreciate life NOW.
i enjoy the way we explore people together, from politician,to the parking guy.
he teach me how to respect, and how to be heard.
he reminds me of the Creator of this earth,
and he makes me feels so protected and loved.

people could be laughing at us.
and this might be my other mistakes in my life.
this might be another foolish thing i ever do in my life.
but as Dee wrote in her Recto Verso hybrid,
grow a day older and see how this sentimental fool can be....
if everything has been written down, so why worry, we say.
it's you and me with a little left of sanity.

one thing for sure, whatever this sentimental fool will turn into, it will NEVER be FORGOTTEN.......

17 September 2010

biar apapun akhir cerita ini

biar apapun akhir cerita ini, 
aku tidak mungkin akan lupa kata2mu yang sering kau ulang
"ada/ tidak adanya saya, saya mau kamu jadi wanita baik2"
dan air mata kamu.
dan alunan surah2 yang kau dengarkan di telinga aku..........., hingga air mataku bercucuran........
kadang, aku merasa tidak layak untuk merasakan semua ini.
dan seringkali aku menangis kerana tidak mahu semua ini berakhir.

andai saja kita bertemu sejak dulu.
andai saja kita tidak perlu bersedih memikirkan masa depan.
dan andai saja semua masa lalu seperti kertas putih bersih..........
aku masih ingat saat semua kelihatan kelam dan kelabu,
kau bimbing aku dan berkata 'kain yang kotor jangan ditambah noda'

kepada semua hati yang telah aku sakiti, maafkan aku.
aku tahu selama ini aku bersalah kerana menyalahkan takdir.
tapi izinkanlah aku untuk bahagia.

mulai hari ini, aku tidak mahu lagi seperti dulu.
biar apa pun akhir cerita ini..............

11 September 2010


rasanya belum terlambat untuk mengucapkan "selamat hari raya" kepada semua....

p.s. harini i duty di hospital dari jam 7 pagi hingga 9 malam. online guna wireless hospital. ngeh3....
kalau makan kuih raya, ingatlah i yang jauh ni ya. hiks