26 January 2011

fear of white coats

i was blogwalking when i came across a segment in this blog  titled Anda Takut Doktor Tak? 
this is a common topic. so many people are afraid of doctors (or should i say... Iatrophobia?). 
now, the question is 
'why are they afraid of us?'
we look like other people. 
we eat. 
we talk. 
we walk
and we SMILE.
so...... what's to be afraid of?

anyway, did you know that doctors feel scared too? 
we are scared of rich patient that always tell us what to do, 
based on what they read on the net instead of trusting us. 
life had changed. 
people had become more intelligent. 
i had to admit that it is good to learn about disease from Mr. Google,
but just as a reference okay, people!

once there was a cardiologist, feared by medical students like me (err... i'm not a student anymore.. hihi), for he is so bright but always ask us questions that we could find answers on any book... 
one day a patient said to him 'doctor, i'll pay anything. just do a bypass surgery on me!' 
now the thing is, the patient does not need a bypass surgery! 
no matter how great a drama on tv, nothing beats a real life drama... 
life is full of dilemmas, right?

23 January 2011

i miss my hectic life! =(

i was looking at my album when i saw this pic. 
took this pic during opthalmology posting. 
you know what?
i miss my 'hospital life'... 
in fact i miss it so much that i can't wait to work! 
i know that there will be so many obstacles when i start to work but still.... 
i hate a long vacation. though it is fun to spend lots of time with my family, i can't live like this everyday. i need to meet new people. that's why i love working at the hospital. though i work at the same environment everyday, i get to meet new people, watch new 'real life drama' and learn new things. 
i miss those good old times when i work 12 hours a day. tiresome, but exciting. i know it sounds weird but that is me.
let's just hope dat when i start working as a houseman i won't regret i've said this. hehe...
p.s. wanna know what i also miss? 
i miss this red runner shoes! the most comfortable flats... ever! but i left it at Makassar (stupid)
p.s.s. i really love to wear flats during 'working' at the hospital. so comfy that i can run!

13 January 2011

pathway to be a House Officer (HO)

yesterday i went to Putrajaya to register as a qualified Medical Doctors. 
trust me, the processes were kinda confusing at first, because i didn't know what exactly i should do first.

but with discussions, Mr. Google, and this useful table showed to me by my colleague,  i finally understand the procedures.

please refer to the latest JPA contact person at SPA here
before going to the Ministry, i had prepared several things:-
1) copies of academic result, medical degree (as an Indonesian graduate, i also copy my S. Ked), IC, birth certificate and SPM result (if you have lost your SPM  result, just get a copy at Block E 11)
2) fill the SPA application form online and PRINT
3) print the JPA form and fill the form (this is only for JPA loan and 'biasiswa' students)
4) passport picture
at Putrajaya, first, we go to Bahagian Sumber Manusia at KKM (Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia, located at the 9th floor of Block E7, Precint E)
there,we were given a form, which we must fill (thank god i had saved my PARENT's IC NUMBER had already discussed the locations that i wanted to work with my parents. it really helps!)

then i go to JPA, precisely at the 5th floor, Bahagian Pembangunan Insan, Presint 2 to report that i had finished studying.
here i had to give the JPA form, printed SPA form, result, degree (this can be done by post)

so now the next step is to  fill in the Malaysian Medical Counsil form.
my head jammed a little bit right now. so many things to do, lah. owh owh.. help....

p.s. did you know that you can check whether your university is qualified or not? i am surprised to see this link. hehe..

09 January 2011


it's weird when you are finally a doctor, but haven't work yet.
it's like you are between your home and your favourite restaurant, and although u almost reach there, you are still not there yet.
it's weird when you used to look at doctors and you said i want to be him/ her, and then when you are finally one, you feel awkward. 
it's weird when your mum used to tell you, 'look, she's a doctor', and now it is YOU dat people look at and tell their kids 'look, she's a  doctor. you want to become a doctor too, right?'
seriously, everything feels weird.
maybe i am not used of this 'not a student' status anymore.
but i refuse to be called a DOCTOR. i haven't start working yet, and hell i'm scared of what might happen in the future.
my uncle (he's a doctor) is already offering me to work at his clinic.
my dad gave me forms and list of my future salary.
seriously, everything freaks me out.
i'm scared.
i've been trying to find articles about HO, and most of them makes me more scared than ever!
but perhaps it is better to expect the worst.

p.s. in this kind of time, i always sing to myself 
'que sera2, whatever will be, will be' 
(while imagining the cute Luna Lovegood in Harry Potter)

05 January 2011

purple feeling

i don't know what i feel right now...
if there is one picture dat can describe it, this is the one.
somehow, this picture speaks to my heart..... 
i'm not happy. i'm not sad.
i'm just.... feeling purple

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