30 July 2011


hari ni best je..
bangun pagi2 tak payah mandi awal2.
x payah pergi hospital.
tengok dapur mama tengah masak mee goreng......

babah kopek durian...
(pagi2 dah makan durian? eh?) 

dan lepas ni nak pergi shopping! 

(tp esok on call. kene sahur kat hospital.hiks)

apapun di kesempatan ini, saya nak ucapkan,
Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan!
 jangan tinggal puasa ye..

22 July 2011

they lie when they said age does not matter

one day, during rounds, my specialist said to a patient
"wow, u are 24 and u already have 3 kids!"
then she turned to my friend and asked her,
"a*****, how old are you?"
"24, doctor" answered my friend with a sheepish smile.

so here we are, looking at two woman with the same age 
(three if include me. i'm 24 too!)

one with 3 kids

and me and my colleague had not even married yet.


you know what?

as we were getting older, the tension build up.

posting in OnG makes me day dream too much.
but i know i had to step my foot on the reality.
though seeing others had completed their life by marrying their love ones and have their own children, rushing will only cause disaster.

so here i am.
enjoying my own sweet time.
InsyaALLAH the right time will come and the right moment.
and then everything will be purrfect!

i still remember a moment where i feel so complete,
when i suddenly said to someone "don't leave me"
i don't know why i said that.
but i'm silently wishing that he's mine, forever.

20 July 2011

now i know why it is more important than money

imagine trapped in a capsule of time,
where you can see the outside but no one can hear you....

sometimes it feels like my wing was broken
which is kinda weird.. (cause I don't even have wings. ehe.)

this few days i have a feeling that i procrastinate too much!
no matter how much time i was given, it is always not enough.
and in the end, i found myself so frustrated and agitated!

so i set a new goal, as i'm approaching 24 years old soon, not to let things behind and prioritize on the right thing.

all work and no play makes jack a dull boy 
but all play and no work makes me a dumb doctor!

i got more time in this department,
i mean, i can finally went back home at 5pm! *wow*
but i found myself being such a couch potato and a hibernating bear.

no matter how much time i given it is still not enough.
money can be find. 
but where in the hell can you replace all of the lost time?
now i know why TIME is more important than money...

16 July 2011

u r my muse, aint ya?

you know what?
there's a highlight of my day today...
i was silent, sitting beside you while thinking how reluctant i am to let you go home when suddenly u said
'don't worry. i will come again to meet you'
as if u can read my mind!


did you know how i long for you to say dat u love me?

did you know what was running in my mind when we walk around the wedding exhibition today?

did you know how i enjoy being by your side?

and did you know that when you make me laugh, i feel like i can't just get enough of you?

oh how i wish i could tell you all this.

but u make me speechless.

i am so afraid to love cuz i can't accept to lose someone anymore.
and when u make me like u even more, i feel like crying.

for the millionth times, 
i make a silent wish, 
please stay in my chapter of live, will you?

15 July 2011

tag until u drop!

tagging is such a tiring process.
everyday i can only go back home at 10pm, which is so damn tiring.
last night i even slept on my sofa without even showering.
sofa saye warne merah! wuuu
and when i woke up at 4 am, i was like "alamak. tertido atas sofa lah" *tepuk dahi geleng kepala*
but today i am so excited as i've passed my assesment.
which means i can finally go back at 5 pm tomorrow!
i can't wait to go back at 5 pm (i never went back home at 5pm before this)

first thing i'll do tomorrow : pay my BIS (blackberry internet service)
me n my torchie ^wink^

ngeh ngeh ngeh

senyum lebar gila sebab dah habis tagging.. 


03 July 2011

oh how i love my job!

i just love seeing those cute babies to be born, to see expecting mother so anxious and excited, to see proud to be father reciting azan for their new one.
oh, my.
seriously, OnG is such a beautiful department!

my highlight of the day is when i was having a trouble to insert a branula.
the patient's vein is so hard to be found.
a specialist saw me trying and he immediately come to help me.
'i know what is lacking'
i put a questioning look
'you just need to smile!' he said to the pregnant lady.
the lady smiled and the branula was inserted so smooth and quickly that it amazed me.
it's not his 'branula inserting' skill dat attracted me, but the way he approaches the lady was simply amazing...

p.s. i think i want to be like the specialist, lah. huuu~

p.s.s suke main2 dengan baby.. lalala~

01 July 2011

please stay

dear someone,

i know we just met
but how i wish you are not just a passer by.

please stay.

i don't want u to be just another person in my gallery.
i want u here.
I know this sounds too soon...
Don't blame me.
How would i realize that Mr. Cupid had aimed his arrows at me?

you step on my shattered heart

it started just like another love story

we were both young when i first saw you
i close my eyes
and the flashback starts
i'm standing there
on a balcony in summer air

(Taylor swift: love story)

and then we started dancing to our own rhythm

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

(stevie wonder: i just called to say i love you)

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

and then i started to daydream.
making big plans, loosened up a lil bit....

but suddenly, your song shifted......

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

if losing me is painful to you then why did u walk away?
if you knew there is no future then why did u call me back when i already left u and never knew of her  existence?
you said u miss me
and u said that u care for me
but look what you have done 

when someone crossed my path and was so sweet to me,
i can't help to think of what you had done.

you had just killed my trust to your species.

don't worry about me.
you did not worth my tears at all.